What is an Atheist witch? For many people who have stumbled across this blog, you might be wondering what, exactly, this entails. Well, for me, it simply says that I believe in magic (think of magic along the same lines as prayer, if you're Christian/Muslim/etc.. Magic is sending energy out into the universe in hopes that doing so might affect your own life. Unlike prayer, you're taking responsibility - or have a sense of doing so - for your own life, instead of relying on a deity to do so.) However, I do not believe in a higher power, what many would term deity. It took me years to figure this out. I was raised Catholic but it never felt right to me. Not just because of it's beliefs in female submission/inferiority and it's intolerance of anyone who happens to be different, but the idea of "God" just...felt wrong. Hollow, even. The concepts in Christianity were too narrow to fit my world view and experience (even though I was only 12 when I first started exploring other faiths) and while it does have some very good messages, the way I saw other people twisting and warping those messages in order to support their moral hypocrisies soured the religion for me. In fact, it soured the whole concept of organized religion. I looked into polytheism (mostly different flavors of Paganism) but I also studied, though briefly, other world religions - Judaism, Hinduism, Buddhism. I even looked into the Muslim faith, not so much because I was interested in joining that faith system, but because I was curious as to why other people would chose to convert if they hadn't been born into it, especially women. In all of these faiths, I have experienced people that follow them, good and bad. I found, especially concerning the Muslim faith which I had heard such negative things about concerning men, that many Muslim men born in the U.S. don't necessarily believe in everything the Qur'an preaches. This was most evident in newer generations. Of course you have the bad seeds in every religion, but I was surprised at what I found.
So, my motto throughout the years has become "Question Everything". And in doing so, I have found out a lot that I would never have known had I not done so.
My form of the craft focuses primarily on the combination of science, the metaphysical, and the paranormal. I don't think that one cancels out the others. Take my sensitive talents, for example. Now, if my readers have ever had experience with people who claim that they are sensitive, you might find that many are pretty wishy-washy about it. They might often try to make it sound mysterious and unattainable for those who haven't been born with "the gift". Now for me, I have very little trust in anyone who claims sensitivity unless I am actively in front of them because I can usually tell when a person is lying, even if they thoroughly believe what they say. I don't toot my own horn and I don't usually talk about this kind of thing because, lets face it, it sounds incredibly weird. But if you want to give what I can do labels, I am sensitive to energies, both past and present. I get flashes of images of instances and people that have come before us (residual hauntings) though I also "see" ghosts. I can interact with them but my "mediumship" isn't so sensitive that I can allow them access. Where my true talent lies is in empathy, which is why it's incredibly easy for me to feel when others are lying.
My hypothesis behind the empathy is pretty much that I am sensitive towards the energy emitted when people experience strong emotions. We all emit energy and science has proven this. I do believe that some people are more easily capable of picking these energies up, but I don't think that it is something other people can't learn to do, if they really want to. For the other sensitivities...well, I haven't come up with an explanation for that.
What really makes me who I am, however, is my past. Since I yammered about my spiritual practices, I'll try to make this section short(er).
I am currently a senior in college, though a bit late to the game. It's taken me almost 8 years to finish my BA, though I got my AA a few years ago. I'm going directly into grad school after I get my BA, which will be at the end of the summer term next year. My current degree is a BA in Social sciences, specifically general psychology, minoring in criminal justice. I'll be getting my Masters and PhD in forensic psychology. I was in an abusive marriage and because of that, I have a case of PTSD. It has ran my life for the past 8 years and since I have been (pretty successfully) dealing with it, I thought that I would take what I've learned and council and advocate for other victims of domestic violence. I hope to partner up with a local PD as a first response. I also intend to be an expert witness for the prosecution.
I have a husband and an almost-2 year old daughter. And that's pretty much me in a nutshell!
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